Friday, March 3, 2017

We believe in faith; I think.

Faith has been important for both Nikki and myself during our journey, at one point it was all we had. After we wait to find out the gender of our baby to be, we continued to prepare. There is so much we've waited to do, so many plans we were beginning to make. Of course, life has become overwhelming with many doctor appointments but they are all for the best, this we know.

As crazy as things have been, these past few weeks have been nothing short of perfection. Our baby is growing as my tummy has gotten much bigger and feeling life inside has been life-altering

While we’ve prayed for this time in our lives, we certainly did not expect it to become so chaotic – not yet at least.

The doctor called a few weeks before our anatomy scan to go over blood work results. It was just another afternoon as we prepared for the work night ahead. When the doctor called, he began rambling on about this result and that result. Then he said something that stopped my heart instantly; Down syndrome. I can't recall much after hearing the probability statistics and next steps that needed to be taken. The phone call was short, but I felt like time had frozen and in that very moment I struggled with an overwhelming amount of fear.

When the call ended, I sat on the steps and got lost in my thoughts. What is down syndrome? How would this change our lives? Our childs life? There were so many questions, so many concerns and so much doubt that suddenly invaded our lives.

The following weeks would prove to test our faith in every way we never expected.